42 I feel like I have no friends anymore

2007-08-12T16:14:29Z

My best friend tyler moved up to boone to go to school, he's still my best friend but we are lucky if we can hang out once a month.

My other 'friends' would rather go hang out w/ other people than chill w/ me...or they want to play dnd until 4 or 5 the next morning and I just can't do that with my 8-5 job.

bobby bailed on getting an apartment with me, looks like it's just going to be me paying for everything...there goes my plans of getting all my debt paid off ASAP.

F-U-C-K

blackknight5k @ 2007-08-03T21:48:00

2007-08-04T01:49:54Z

i copied and pasted most of this from my thread at FO, so a lot of you have already seen this:

I was going through a green light in downtown going to get some chinese food on my lunch break. All I remember after that was squeaking tires, looking to my right and seeing a van heading for my passenger side really fast...and then I remember looking at my light to make sure it was green...and it was...and then I remember being spun around in the intersection and a lot of broken glass flying everywhere.

My car was totaled, I thought I was ok so I called my boss and told her that I had gotten into a wreck and then I called the cops because the person in the other car didn't have a phone. The lady driving the car was delivering for a florist. Cops came, tow truck came...as my adrenalin level started to go down I noticed my side was hurting really bad, so I went to the ER.

My rib is cracked...but other than that I'm ok. Scary day...and now I'm stuck at the house in pain.

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-30T23:54:00

2007-07-31T03:55:01Z

the guy i'm replacing was having trouble w/ his eye on friday...so i offered him some of my contact solution to flush his eye out...

THE FUCKER HAD PINK EYE

Now I think I have it...fuck

The little on is sleeping...

2007-07-28T18:34:45Z

so my entertainment is gone for now...so now I'm bored until she wakes up, and I probably have another good hour before she gets up.

First week of work went ok, I felt odd about the job to start with but as of Friday I'm starting to like it a lot more. The biggest con of where I work is the fact that everyone is at least 10 yrs older than me. Looks like the turnover rate is really low there, so I really have nothing in common with anyone...

But, money's good, benefits are ok, and it's a job.....

what I want...

2007-07-26T00:53:40Z

I want someone who cares about my daughter
I want someone who doesn't care that I'm a little overweight...
I want someone who can understand that one night a week I want to spend time with my friends playing shadowrun
I want someone who is ok with the fact that sometimes I just need to be alone
I want someone who understands that sometimes I can't be alone

So far, after looking for so long...nothing

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-23T19:29:00

2007-07-23T23:32:53Z

Today was my first day at work, it went well. The IT staff is really nice, I think I know them from somewhere but I don't know where.

I went to the lake w/ some friends last night, it was a blast.

Now I'm sleepy, later

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-16T14:43:00

2007-07-16T18:45:08Z

I got the job in HKY, so I'm moving back

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-15T21:31:00

2007-07-16T01:35:16Z

just got back from the beach. My uncle and his (now wife) had a wedding on the beach, which was pretty cool. I like my new aunt and I think she fits into the family very well. Her kids are also pretty cool, her daughter spent most of the time playing with my daughter (new cousin is 12) and that was nice to have someone to chase her around for me...though I probably needed the running, I've gained weight since I moved in with my mom, which is depressing.

being the only single person over the age of 18 is also depressing when you're at a wedding, and that was who I was. I was "the divorced guy", that was a load of fun.

Also, you would think there would be more hot chicks at the beach, but no...there were very few, so I didn't even have anything nice to look at.

Well...yeah, I gotta start working out and now I think I'm actually motivated to do it. I'll keep you LJ people updated.

OH MY FUCKING GOD

2007-07-12T02:59:00Z

my mom's boyfriend just said "once you go black, you never go back"

also, they were talking about the mile high swinging bridge at grandfather's mountain, and he asked "can we join the mile high club w/o a plane"

oh my god, I wish I had more rum...

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-10T18:24:00

2007-07-10T22:30:32Z

So, yesterday I went to a staffing agency to fill out paperwork to see if they could find a job for me. I had to watch this idiotic video on office safety...these guys are very afraid of getting sued.

I also got a call today about a possible 2-week contract position in Wilkesboro, which would mean I'd go stay w/ Tyler and Muffin for that time...which means I'll temporarily be back in NC. I don't know if I got the position yet, so don't anyone up there hold your breath...might not get to go back.

Also, my stepmom called and said she was contacted by a company up there in Hickory about an IT position. Figures, I get all my shit packed and move the fuck down here, just to start getting job offers back UP THERE.

I also miss Elphie, but this week Melinda only has her today, tomorrow, and thursday and I will have her friday through sunday!!!! And we are going to the beach!! My uncle's getting married on the beach saturday morning, so we are all staying at the beach for the weekend. It's going to rock, I haven't been on vacation in 2 years.

Well, that's it. Until I update again

blackknight5k @ 2007-07-04T16:20:00

2007-07-04T20:29:54Z

I'm pretty bored, so I figured I would update everyone on things that are going on.

I moved back to Rock Hill, SC and I'm living w/ my mom. She's not doing great financially, so I'm going to be paying her a decent amount every month once I get a job. I have a few opportunities possibly opening up soon, one with a company that would require a lot of travel and others through an IT staffing agency I just found.

The worst parts about living in SC, though, are:

1 - I miss Elphie...I thought I could handle being away from her for a little bit at a time, but I can't. I was out today running errands and I heard little kids calling for their daddy and heard little babies making kid sounds...I was so sad:-( I miss her so much.

2 - I'm lonely - I know no one down here except family. Grant and the crew were suppose to come down this weekend, but most of them ended up having to work and Grant didn't have the $$ to drive down...Then Grace and some of her family were going to Carowinds, which is like 20 min from Rock Hill and she was going to call me when they were done over there so we could hang out...of course she never called.

Also I'm lonely on the woman front...I've been separated for almost a year (3 days until 1 full year) and I haven't been in any sort of relationship at all, just one thing close to it about 4 months ago and she turned out to be pretty nuts so it's all good.

I did go to 2 different gaming stores in the area yesterday to meet people and to see what they carried. Both places stock and play 40k on a regular basis, so that rocks, and both also play this other game called AT-43 which looks pretty sweet. One store also carried a game called Battlefield Evolution which is a prepainted(fuck yes) table top strategy game that takes place in the near future, so they have abrams tanks and USMC figures along with the terrorist types, Chinese, American, and...something else...forces. It looks pretty sweet and easy and cheaper than 40k, which is fucking awesome.

I also may have found a gaming group to play Shadowrun with...which would rock. I miss gaming with the guys up in HKY. I told them that if they came down for a weekend we could turn it into a non-stop (except for sleep) gaming weekend where we played shadowrun, betrayal, Zombies!!!, and whatever other games they felt like bringing and playing...but who knows when that will be.

Yeah, that's pretty much it. If I'm online feel free to IM me because I am very socially deprived right now...all my brother and his boyfriend want to do is play the SIMS 2 and my mom, even though she is pretty damn awsome, isn't into the nerd hobbies...but I did watch Serenity with her last night, which I think she enjoyed.

Oh well, AIM = thatmeanboy
yahoo = black_knight_5k
msn = blackknight5k(at)hotmail(d-o-t-izzle)com

I'm in a damn good mood

2007-04-27T21:46:32Z

Spent most of my day consulting at one of my client's offices. Four women work there, three older but one is in her mid 30's and is hot as hell. I swear...damn...anyways so that was fun.

Then I got back to the office and spent my last hour of work watching Qubec rock videos that my boss had.

I know I havn't posted in a while, it's been a stressful time, but I'm in a good mood right now and hopefully it'll carry on until tomorrow at least.

pictures of my daughter! and one of me

2007-04-03T22:31:35Z

Clients

2007-03-28T23:16:14Z

In my car there is a rolly bag

In my rolly bag there are little manila folders

In those folders are information on...

my clients!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have clients, holy shit. People that trust me to keep their computers working smoothly! It's in-freaking-sane!

7 damn 30 AM

2007-03-24T11:28:54Z

Yeah, I'm up on my one day I can sleep in. Why? well, because my beautiful loving daughter has decided that she wanted to get up at 6:30 and eat breakfast. I tried to get her to go back to sleep...but yeah, she doesn't care. She's just mad at me for it.

Yeah, so FO is down as well...which means I can't waste time there.

Yeah..no one is online either, and my kid just wants to play w/ her toys and sing...so she doesn't wanna chill w/ her old man.

Blargh

Save me

2007-03-22T17:25:48Z

If you don't know if you have found what you are looking for
The silver-lining always starts to fade
And what you don't know is that you don't know the truth anymore
Now you try sleeping in the bed you have made

The feeling is gone and the circle is broken
Like water under a burning bridge
A million words but nothing is spoken
A deafening silence replaced by fear

Save me
I can't find my way home
The grace i've fallen from
The only truth i've ever known

So when you tell me what you tell me
I can't take it anymore
The same old story goes around and around
You think that if you speak alittle louder than you did before
The point you make might somehow stick around

If empathy is no more than a token
I cry a river in the pouring rain
The princess still sleeps but she will be woken
Her kiss of love is killing me

Save me
I can't find my way home
The ground i'm walking on
The only friend i've ever known

Mother father
The battle I fight is for no one
No one but myself
Brother sister
The devil inside is my own now
There's no way you could understand
You don't understand

Mother father
The tears that you cry are for no one
No one but yourself
Brother sister
I travel this road on my own now
There's no way you could understand

today

2007-03-21T22:01:18Z

So, today work was pretty cool...I got to program our old ass 2600 router to link to our new service provider. That was interesting, I did test after test to ensure that it would work, and it did. We were only offline for maybe 15 seconds when we made the change.

Then we had to go to this guy's house. See, he's the richest guy in Union county...he lives in like a 1 million dollar home(yeah, union county's poor) but anyways, he didn't want us to ruin his house by putting our radio equipment on it so we attached it to a tree and ran about 150ft of cat 5 cable across his yard, around his driveway, and into his house. Well, he called today and said that his connection quit.

Well, sometime I tend to be slightly psychic...and i knew right away "damnit, we're going to have to rerun the cable". Everyone else who worked there was like "no, his radio probably died" so we went to his house and tested his radio...and of course, it was fine. Well, our company uses INDOOR cable to run outside (stupid, i know) and on top of that the guy ran the line UNDER HIS DRIVEWAY about 6 inches, so it was being crushed by hundreds of sharp rocks...WOW! SO I WAS RIGHT! Anyways, we tested the cable and the 4th and 5th wires were bad, which in normal cat 5 cable they are not used but the equipment we use needs those 2 wires to send power. Well, I had the idea to swap the 7th and 8th wires to replace the 4th and 5th...

Well, my boss told me to try cutting off one RJ-45 and replacing it...yeah, didn't work...so we were about to try to cut off the other end and i told my boss "lets just try switching the wires"...he told me "no, it won't work but go ahead and try it anyways"

yeah, he was wrong...it worked. It's a temporary fix and we will have to rerun the cable, but for now it's all good.

hell yeah

2007-03-19T21:48:45Z

I got my raise!

the enemy

2007-03-17T21:43:39Z

I didn't buy godsmack's IV album because I didn't know if I'd like it or not, but their new single "the enemy" is like...exactly how i felt when my "Friend" and my ex-wife got together. As soon as my ex and I split he died his hair from red to black (like mine is naturally) and he grew a beard (like my ex wanted me to keep but i shaved it off right before we split up)

"Hey! Oh, Mr. backstabbing son of a bitch
You're living in a world that will soon be dying
And I know, everybody knows you try to be like me
But even at your best, as a man you couldn't even be a half of me"

But my ex just did the same thing to him that she did to me, so he's suffering and being all emo and shit about it. I've given up on being sad about it, if she wants to go be a slut w/ some dude she works with then whatever.

Anyways, all that's behind me. Life is really starting to pick up for me, I'm happier by about a factor of 12 right now than I was last time I posted.

I'm actually starting to enjoy life

ok

2007-03-14T21:06:33Z

scratch that about me might wanting to be friends w/ my ex again, she totally screwed that over.

Instead of watching Elphie tonight like she was suppose to, she has decided that she wants to drop her off with me so she can go out drinking with her aunt, aunt's boyfriend, and her new guy.

today was my first day to do a real IT consultation, it went well and i made the company enough money to cover my check for the last two weeks ( i know, it doesn't sound fair does it?). I talked to my boss and suggested that since they wanted to put me on a salary that they put me on a salary and then pay me extra by the hour when I'm out on a consultation. Sounds fair right? that's what I think.

Well, it is now time for cisco class

time w/ the ex

2007-03-13T22:01:02Z

So, today went ok. Class blew this morning but I had lunch w/ my friend tyler then had to go pay a dr 100 bucks because melinda insisted that we take Elphie to the Dr while her medical insurance was inactive...yeah, that was just wonderful.

Then I went to get elphie and melinda needed a ride into town to get a few things. We actually had a good time together! We went shopping for a few things and she grabbed lunch before work. If she keeps this up I might actually want to be friends with her again.

300

2007-03-10T05:40:40Z

I lied in my other post...well, not really lied but anyways

I saw 300. Nuff Said.

Friday

2007-03-09T21:12:35Z

Looks like tonight will be just another Friday night where I sit up late on the computer and do nothing.

FO name change

2007-03-08T14:40:10Z

so, I'm in linux class again...I should be doing something productive, but Instead I'm playing Reversi. I have the computer on the highest difficulty and I keep kicking its ass...so now i'm bored.

I think I want to change my FO name...suggestions?

Man...today today...

2007-03-08T01:09:43Z

My day was interesting, after my daughter wouldn't go to sleep until about 11:30 last night (thanks to my ex-wife's keeping her up late) I didn't get much sleep because I had to get up extra early to get my daughter ready to be dropped off at her mom's house. Well, of course my ex-wife had her boyfriend over when I got there (fucking whore) and we talked for a minute, then I left to go meet my dad to have my car fixed.

All I thought I needed were new breakpads and an oil change, so I leave my car and my dad drops me off at work. I get a call at work:

Car guy(jeff): hey man, you probably want to sit down
me: uh...i am sitting down
jeff: haha, you are sitting down, ok well you're going to need new break pads on all four wheels(figured as much), and also new rotors, and a break fluid bleed.
me: ok, how much is that going to cost me?
him: 525
*HOLY FUCKING HELL*
me: ok, what if you take out the break fluid flush?
him: ok, that brings it down to 475
me: ok, go for it
him: you also need to think about getting a transmission flush, and man you really need new tires(i already knew about the tires)
me: ok, i'll bring it back in when i have more money, but right now lets just do the breaks
him: ok, i'll call when it's ready

Let me go ahead and pimp Meineke for a minute, they are great to us. We have everything we can have done to our cars there, as soon as our car pulls up the guy pulls up our information and is ready as soon as we walk in the door, and this guy isn't just a peon cashier he's the freakin owner. The have great service, he's always nice, and he's just all round awesome.

Anyways, so on top of that we are busy as hell today trying to get ready to put up some equipment on top of a tower to extend some of our bandwidth. Then, on top of that we get more calls today than we have ever gotten on a day I've been working there...so busy busy busy.

Ok, so the crew leaves to go put the equipment on the tower, my boss and I go grab lunch and then come back to work. I have to make some phone calls to people, anyways work actually slows down by then.

Then, we get a call from one of our clients. She works in a small office w/o an IT staff and she wanted to know how much it would cost to have someone come out to take a look at their network, do virus/spyware scans, etc etc every few months. So, of course being the networking guy at our office I get my first IT consulting job(well, aside from one other job but i don't think it really counts). Anyways, so my boss e-mails me to call her back...she answers:
me: hi *client* this is rick from *my company*
her: hi
me: *boss* told me you needed someone to come in to do some IT consulting?
her: yeah, we just need someone to do BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
me: ok, he said that Monday or Tuesday would be best for you
her: actually, that's Tuesday or Wednesday
me: ok, well when are you available on Wednesday
*her voice gets all deep and sexy like*
her: I don't know, when are you available on Wednesday
*my jaw dropped*
me: uh, well as long as i'm done before 4:30 then it's fine with me
her*still in sexy voice*: ok, how about 11
me: ok, that's great, see you then!
her: ok, bye
me: bye

So..yeah, that was interesting

So then I went to class, which was ok, we learned about IS-IS(a routing protocol) and we did a lab to learn how to configure it. Well, now I'm home. I wanted to go hang out w/ Jessica tonight, but I'm just so freakin tired and I have to do some homework...so yeah, let me go do that